CW: emotional manipulation and narcissistic behavior
*pulls up saved Feelings Wheel image on my phone* I feel disrespected, hostile, embarrassed, inferior, and shocked. These were the words I shared with my friend as I tried to bring myself to eat my dinner. I was craving empanadas, but as I replayed an earlier conversation in my head, I started losing my appetite. I hadn’t felt this triggered since my early 20s. A horrible dating experience in college led to me dropping 20 lbs. Another time in my mid-20s, led to me feeling self-conscious and insecure. As I sat across the table from my dear friend, trying to convince my mind to take another bite, my body screamed at me—she’d been here before. We had been here before. Did I miss something this time?
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